I'm so DISAPPOINTED...!

MAD...!

VEXED...!

FRUSTRATED...!

ANGRY...!

And whatever unpleasant words you can think of when you're feeling this way...

WHY??!!

COZ SAYANG WON'T BE COMING HOME TODAY....!!!

I'm not mad at him, but the stupid "new rule" that HTA inforced at the very last minute...

What the @#%^&%$$!!!!

The agreement CLEARLY states that they will be in camp for 10 days...

If it's written in black and white, you should jolly well follow what is stipulated on paper...!

You can't just alter the agreement as and when you feel like it!

So bloody damn angry...

HMMPH!!!....

Luckily, I was on course when sayang broke the news this afternoon... At least I was distracted enough to not feel sad or angry... But after a while, the feeling suddenly seeped in through my system... That usually happens when I'm alone.... That's why I hate being alone.... All kinds of feelings or emotions can make me feel sooooo small.....

At first I told Ain (my colleague, who went to the same course), and she pitied me.... But her pity didn't have any effect on me... Maybe coz her pity was somewhat jokingly... I sense no pitiness in it (haha... what the hell?)...

Then, when I was in the locker room about to go home, I told Ira (another colleague of mine) about it. She was genuinely concerned... I was complaining to her that he'll only come home tomorrow and she said: "It's only for one more day, Wati..."... And I retorted back: "But one day is a big deal to me ok??"... Then she laughed....

I went out to let Jess (my supervisor) check my bag before going off, and Ira told me: "Don't sad-sad k?"... Jess asked what happened and Ira told her that sayang won't be coming home (but of course she didn't call sayang "sayang" la... hehe...)... So I told Jess: "K I'm going to drown... Drown in my tears...." And she stopped me by saying: "No, please don't drown....! At least wait for Marini to come back so that she can take over you....".... That part "CUT!!".... Hehe... Jess and her nonsense... =)

So here I am typing away.... Not about the supposedly "wonderful" time I was supposed to have... Instead, I'm writing yet another sorrow story... Sigh...

BUT.....!

I'm sure tomorrow's gonna be a whole different story to tell.... I simply CAN'T wait for tomorrow... Let's count down the hours left till tomorrow together, shall we?

As of now, it's 17 hours and 15 mins to tomorrow (that is, if he's meeting me when I'm having my break)...

And 20 hours 15 mins, if he's meeting me after work.....

So I guess I'll stop here then....

LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH NUR HIZAMI B JOHARI......!!!!! MMMUACKZ!!! =)

p/s: Adek kepo seh bace blog org.... hehehe..... Joking ya... See you tomorrow!! Finally, there's something to smile about... =)